At this time tomorrow, you will be already in the plane, on the way to Thailand. Away from home, away from your family, away from me. Although you don't show your emotions at all, but dearest, I know you are sad but at the same time nervous for whatever is ahead of you.

I've said all I wanted to say already and repeated them many times to you. So I guess it is not necessary anymore. Spending today together, treasuring every single moment, makes me realized how important you are to me. My heart ached, seeing you walk out of the door. I can't imagine tomorrow, when you wave goodbye and walk through those gates I've always hated. The next time I can see you is in December ); Hopefully before Christmas.

My eyes have not been obedient for the past 2 weeks, it has not been able to control. Crying everyday in front of you makes me feel worst, because I know you will feel as bad. I am sorry but it can't be controlled. I'm tired of crying everyday too, it is so tiring to be sad and unhappy. Everyday, my mind is filled with thoughts, so much so that I can't stop thinking. But every night, I pray to God, asking him to bless and guide you, asking him "How will I be able to live without you by my side". I may sound crazy to others, but only you will know the reason to it. How I wish I could stop the time, so that you can be by my side forever, only then I will feel so at ease and secured. You told me not to stay in my chamber all day, but this is the only place I like and feel comfortable when you are not with me.

On our last sleepover, no matter how heavy my eyelids were, I told myself not to sleep as I lie beside you, watching you fall asleep. Because I know I will never get to see you sleeping right beside me, never going to lie so closely, feeling your heartbeat until you are back. I am going to miss you so damn much, and it is less than a day before you leave, there's nothing I can do, but
- to learn to be strong and overcome this,
- to keep all those promises I made to you in mind,
- to prove to you that, no matter where you are, you are still in this heart of mine,
- to keep in mind of the future that lies ahead of us,
- to think about you and tell myself, life is not easy for you either,
- to remind myself, I can do this until December comes,
- to be positive (although it is fucking difficult) and know you will come back to my arms soon

With all that, I wish you all the best darling, please take care of yourself, eat well, sleep well, rest well, gym well, work well and play well. Most importantly, stay in the pink of health and out of trouble. I will be with you, all the time. Call back whenever you can, email and text too.

Hope you like your farewell album, anniversary present and birthday present I bought for you in advance. And don't ever feel bad about the amount or whatever digit it cost because it is all worthwhile, for you.

Bon Voyage, my love ♥ 

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